Power and responsibility

“… return to the ways of the world, or … remain steadfast in your faith and pass the test”

The test is what happens with the power I am given.

The power is the first drop of an ocean of power.

The mistake is to run to the world to use the power to impress others, to create a profile, to establish myself, to get my own way, to achieve things, to nail down security, to achieve ambitions, sure, ‘spiritually’ now, but my fingerprints are on everything.

What is the way of the world? Me at the centre of my own life, me filling my own consciousness, mouth open, eyes shut, ears shut, emotion drowning out intelligence, acting without thinking, firecracker, loose cannon.

What is remaining steadfast in my faith? Serving as invisibly as possible, diligently, conservatively, and obediently, intelligence with emotion on a short leash, thinking before acting, dullard, safe pair of hands.

If I would be happy only ever washing up AA cups, I am allowed to do more. If I want to do more, I should wash up AA cups until I’m happy doing just that and only that. If I ‘want’ to be a GSR, I’m dangerous. If I ‘want’ to be a Conference Delegate, I’m deadly.

Until I’m perfectly happy folding laundry, I won’t be happy doing anything.

Until I’m happy with complete invisibility, I have a very long way to go indeed.