Surrender to God

'Tense, nervous headache?' the advertisement would run. The feeling of tension comes from a conflict between two possible pathways, typically one with more benefits for me in the short term (for instance avoidance of strife, comfort, excitement) but with long-term consequences and one with more benefits for me in the long term (for instance overall benefits for my life) but with short-term consequences (hardship, saying 'no' to myself, effort, discomfort). Sometimes you start doing the right thing but you are still conflicted because you feel pulled to the wrong thing. The only solution is complete surrender, the image for which is this: you lock the door and slide the key out under the door so now you're permanently locked in. Now, every day you will find the key magically appearing back in the locked room, and you'll have the option to unlock the door, so day by day you have to slide the key back out under the door so you can no longer reach it. Once the fateful move has taken place, there is no conflict, because there is only one path before you: God's path, and one might as well reconcile oneself to it, because it's that or nothing. What does this mean in practice? Say to God: what do you want me to do today? Who do you want me to see? How should I spend my time? And you simply get on with it, regardless of any lack of enthusiasm. This will initially feel dry, but eventually (sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly) colour and light floods in and you're relieved you're locked inside the room, because the whole universe is contained inside the room and the universe you think you're looked inside away from is actually an endless void.